So, we didn’t get the house…as the number two bidder, there are no rewards. But something surprising happened when we discovered we didn’t get the house yesterday. I wasn’t unhappy. In fact, I was relieved that I didn’t have to move, or juggle my finances, or sign a whole bunch of paperwork. And that new set of feelings made me examine my life and take some notes.
I’ve always been a person who hates stasis…I embrace change, and often run towards it at a furious rate. I equate change with evolution, and I’m always seeking to evolve. It’s a basic cornerstone of my life philosophy. And yet….here I was in a situation where I’m craving the status quo.
It made me realize that I’ve had a ton of change over the past two years, and I might still be catching up to all my feelings and experiences logged over that time. The new job — and new network and set of work processes — have kept me busy. I moved twice, and the first time was a total flop (although the second time seems to have been quite more successful). Lots of changes, and I think my urge to embrace change is somewhat lower than normal. So…maybe we back off of the home search, and just enjoy being settled for a little while. Take a breather, and maybe some vacation time.
I can always hop back on the treadmill later this fall, right?